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My new diabetic “helper” December 9, 2011

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I have put on a lot of weight since I was diagnosed with diabetes. Part of it was weight I had lost that I think was caused by becoming diabetic before diagnosis (I lost 60 pounds the year before I was diagnosed). However, it was just becoming clear that I needed to work on it and needed some external help because I wasn’t figuring it out on my own and programs like WW aren’t really targeted to diabetics. I could make a list of other excuses, but the main thing is I was a little at loss on where to start and what to do. Not that I didn’t get the idea of fewer calories in than burned, but…I didn’t want to just start a diet, I wanted some one-on-one advice.

So after much research I found a nutritionist/dietitian who also has a specialty in diabetes. I started meeting with her in October/November. I love it.

First, I had to start documenting everything I eat/drink. For this I’m using www.myfitnesspal.com. I can do it from my computer or my phone. It has an awesome database of foods. Every visit we review my logs (including what time i ate each meal/snack and how I was feeling in the notes section). We also try to come up with a plan ahead of schedule. I’m finding that a plan is the key to success. However, there have been other lessons.

I was not eating breakfast at least 95% of the time. And on days that I work from home I might not eat until 3 or 4 and I was really starving. Thus, my body thought it was starving and would hold on to every calorie I took in. The breakfast thing was partly because so many mornings I was waking up feeling nauseous. At first I thought this was from high bg, but after disproving that I think it’s acid reflux. Sexy! I have started taking over the counter meds and it’s been a big help. I’m up to have a diabetic-friendly Boost for breakfast on my way out. The other part of this was discovering I wasn’t keeping food at home I would want to eat. I don’t mean like pizza and chocolate, but just keeping something crunchy and some things that are easy meals – like tuna fish and crackers.

She also reviews some things I’m doing and has simple changes. Like have a fruit or vegetable with every meal. If you are ordering out, make a veg at home too. Set a limit to drinks before going out with friends.

I’m also trying out more cooking at home. Wish I had a dishwasher! I am trying to always do at least enough for dinner and then lunch the next day when I cook. Some things like soup I’ve also frozen some servings for later. I need to do more of this kind of thing, but the progress I’ve made has been good. My lady likes pictures of my food. I don’t photograph them all, but things like a beautiful soup deserve a picture!

She’s also very encouraging. She’s checked in by email a few times between visits. My favorite email was short and sweet: “I’m really proud of you, too. Losing weight and taking care of yourself is never easy… keep it up.”

I can do this!

 

Diabetic Retinopathy December 7, 2011

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It’s amazing how depressing doing research can be when you’re diabetic.

 One of the first things I was told was I should get a dilated eye exam annually once I was diagnosed.  I have had glasses since I was 11, so seeing the eye doctor was no new thing.  However, this does add some time.  Regular eye exam:  better 1, better 2 + the drops.  Then you are released to wait for half an hour in the waiting room and then brought back in.  This past July the eye doctor saw some “scarring” that made him refer me elsewhere.  

Lovely. 

So, in July I went to a specialty clinic.  It was a horrible experience.  I will add my mom had surgery the day before and I had a call immediately before that things weren’t great so my eyes were bloodshot to begin with.  So I went and got dilated.  Waited.  Decided I should be more dilated.  (I have large eyes). Then I went back to get photos taken…the person missed my vein completely and just filled my arm with yellow dye.  Then I went into an exam room for a while.  I finally saw a young doctor.  She gave me her opinion.  I waited an hour to see the more experienced doctor for him to repeat everything and then ask about my diabetes.  ”You should never go above 130,” he said.  

Insert dragon head here and fire with “YOU KNOW I’M A TYPE 1 DIABETIC, RIGHT?”"  

Yep.  Um…even if I have the most perfect numbers I rise more than that number from just waking up, getting ready and going to work…no food…

It really turned me off.  So much so that I put off the follow-up exam for a month longer than was suggested.  This time, it was annoying but no dye in my arm and an hour less time.  He did ask about my diabetes again and I said I had gotten the Dexcom and was mostly under 200 (which would be AWESOME, bells in Heaven AWESOME) and he said “we really need you to stay under 130.”  

So do I do/say something?  This is obviously absurd.  

Oh, the second eye exam they said the pocket of fluid was gone and my eyes look great.  Though when I asked if I could switch to coming annually after one more check he said “people like you should come at least every 9 months.”  People like me are diabetic.  

 

Invisible Disease Meme September 16, 2011

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1. The illness I live with is: Type 1 Diabetes
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2008
3. But I had symptoms since: 2007
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Constant juggle to try to get the numbers “right”
5. Most people assume: That I have Type 2 diabetes
6. The hardest part about mornings are: When I wake up high, high, high and have to still get ready for work and head in.
7. My favorite medical TV show is: Bones. Isn’t that medical?
8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: My meter. Gotta be able to test!
9. The hardest part about nights are: Worries of going low
10. Each day I take 2 pills & a lot of insulin.
11. Regarding alternative treatments I: Don’t really use any
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: Invisible. Though I’m not entirely invisible with my diabetes since I test in public and sport a pump.
13. Regarding working and career: I am fortunate to have a career I enjoy and a company that allows the flexibility that diabetes sometimes requires
14. People would be surprised to know: That I can eat most things.
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: The need for constant awareness
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: I don’t have a good answer for this one
17. The commercials about my illness: Most seem to focus on old people…but I like the one with Crystal Bowersox, playing guitar and the man says “do you test on those fingers”
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: Being able to get dressed without having to find a place for my pump!
19. It was really hard to have to give up: Being able to go somewhere without a purse.
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Raising money for diabetes
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: Be pretty happy and chill.
22. My illness has taught me: That there’s more to diabetes than just the numbers. It ain’t all science.
23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: Any of the stories of people that have died or lost limbs from diabetes.
24. But I love it when people: Ask non-judgmental questions.
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly
26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: It’s going to be alright. Be patient and kind to yourself.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: there are a lot of awesome people who also happen to have diabetes
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: bring me some diet soda.
29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: I sometimes need to think consciously about diabetes more than the numbers.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: Appreciative.

 

Diabetes Art Day! August 31, 2011

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I loved Diabetes Art Day last year and am excited to participate again. However, it isn’t as I had planned. I have all my art supplies at home and last week was called to Arkansas unexpectedly when my mom had some struggles post-surgery. So today I started thinking of what I could do without “supplies”…

After a pretty stressful day I was taking a drive and found myself playing with my pump tubing. I looked down at it around my fingers and thought it looked kind of artistic. After a few minutes I decided to “make” this picture that I’m titling:

Making Peace with Diabetes!

 

Really beautiful song August 8, 2011

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I was watching some “Celebrity Rehab” recently and saw Mindy McCready sing this song. It was very touching, so I’m buying it on iTunes but thought I’d post it here too. It’s called “I’m still here”

I’m okay, I’m alright
Hurricanes and train wrecks only last one night
Would you believe all I’ve been through?
Had the hands of tempted fate
Oh, if you only knew
What it costs, how I wait
What I got, what I gave

Chorus:
I’m still here…
After the heartache, after the storm blew through
I kept me and it saved me
I’m still standin’, right where you left me
On a cold dark cloud, with nowhere to fall but down
Like a single, naked unrelenting tear…
I’m still here

There was darkness, all around me
There were times I was sure I was drowning
There were people, who tried to reach me
But no matter how they loved me, I kept sinking
I got tired on my own hand, I reached inside and I saved myself

This time I can survive.
I ain’t dying on nobody else’s cross
I ain’t sufferin’ no more unforgivin’ loss
Oh, no.

I’m still here…
After the heartache, after the storm blew through
I kept me and it saved me
And I’m still standin’, right where you left me
On a cold dark cloud, with nowhere to fall but down
Like a single, naked unrelenting tear…
I’m still here
I’m still here

 

Play nice! May 17, 2011

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My blood sugars have been through the roof for the past 24 hours. I feel like last night I took a lot more insulin than I needed but still woke up to 225. I corrected for it and for my muffin for breakfast. Okay, maybe I should’ve waited on the muffin. An hour before lunch I was still around the 225 number. I corrected for it and met up for lunch. The majority of my lunch had no carbs, but I did correct for what I ate. An hour later….310. Then 320. Then 340. Note those all could be the same reading and not an actual rise since stupid strip manufactures allow a 20% variance rate.

Grumble, grumble. I’m particularly annoyed because the company is doing an “Ice Cream Social” right now and I can’t join!!!!

Diabetes is not playing very nicely with it’s host today.

ZZZzzzzzZZZZ………

 

What we’ve learned… May 15, 2011

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“I think Day 7 should be a post about stuff we’ve learned from other blogs or the experience of coming together online…”

I have learned that the parents of diabetic children are just as passionate as the diabetics themselves.

I have learned that the amount of heart and humor in the DOC is pretty awesome.

I have learned that people would like me to blog more. heh.

I have learned that I’m not alone in this fight.

I have learned that other people are frustrated with the same things I am.

I have learned that I can blog every day for a week!

I have remembered how important it is to take care of this disease.

Thank you.

 

A picture is worth 1,000 words May 14, 2011

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Diabetes Blogging Week – Day 6 – D-Pictures

Unfortunately my camera is broken right now, but I thought I would pull out one of my favorite pictures from last fall.

Anyone with diabetes knows about these pesky strips. They get everywhere. This is a shot of all that came out of the bottom of my purse in one cleaning! I started to list all of the other places I’ve found them but realized it would just be easier to say that I’ve found them everywhere I go. :)

Shout-out to the blogging week!

 

Diabetes Blog Week – Day 5 May 13, 2011

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What awesome thing have you done BECAUSE of diabetes? After all, like my blog header says, life with diabetes isn’t all bad!

I’ve done some awesome things while being diabetic, but was trying to really think about this as what have I done with the all-caps because.

The first thing that came to mind was something I should have remembered for the bloopers day. I was not feeling well the day of my first 5k (3 months post-diagnosis), but felt compelled to run it. I kept having to stop to cough and had to walk more than I expected. I ended up just under 40 minutes and the next day found out I had bronchitis. Not so smart!! Now I wish I was in the shape I was then – maybe this is the wake-up call to get back there by remembering it.

Okay, that one doesn’t win! I think the thing I’ve done that I’m most proud of is raising money for a walk last year. It was my first diabetes walk. A friend joined me, which made it even better. I was so happy and humbled by the friends that donated from large to small amounts. Every donation meant so much to me, to know that people were willing to put their hard-earned money towards improvements and a cure for ME and the other people that have this disease. I will do it again this year, for sure, and hope to have more folks on my team.

Reflecting on this makes me feel hopeful.

 

10 Things I hate about you – modified May 12, 2011

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Diabetes Blogging Week - Day 4 – List ten things I hate about diabetes.

I borrowed the 10 Things I hate about you poem and modified it a wee bit.

10 things I hate about you , Diabetes

I hate the way you make me feel,

and the way you jump around.

I hate the way you break my bank,

I hate that you keep me insulin bound.

I hate your big dumb equipment

and the way you distract my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate that you’re always not always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it that you’re always around,

and the fact that you leave your marks.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

not even close…

not even a little bit…

not even at all.

Okay, well, maybe a little. ;)

 

 
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