Sunday 5/16 – Dream a little dream – life after a cure. To wrap up Diabetes Blog Week, let’s pretend a cure has been found. We are all given a tiny little pill to swallow and *poof* our pancreases are back in working order. No side effects. No more insulin resistance. No more diabetes. Tell us what your life is now like. Or take us through your first day celebrating life without the Big D. Blog about how you imagine you would feel if you no longer were a Person With Diabetes.
I have to admit, just reading this post made me teary eyed. Compared to a lot of folks in the Diabetes Online Community, I have only been dealing with this for a small time (2.5 years). But to imagine life without is overwhelming. No more drugs. No more pump. No more finger sticks. No more planning. No more…diabetes. It almost makes my heart hurt to try to think about it with knowing that it’s not the case.
First of all, I would feel rich. Rich with money, yes…diabetes is very expensive, even with insurance. Crazy expensive, even. But, also rich with life. A life without restrictions. A life where I am not fighting weight with the added insult of insulin (including not being able to exercise without planning and pump changing). Life where people don’t have to worry about me and ask questions about my health. I’m 32. No one should be asking about my health on a regular basis.
A life without a DISEASE. Without diabetes, I’m disease free. It hurts my feelings to know I have a disease right now.
What turned into thinking about a blog post that made me teary-eyed may have resulted in full out sobbing. It’s…well, it’s just a lot. And a though of a cure is wonderful, but I can’t continue to try to imagine it now.